The Current in the Chaos

Newly retired husband, husband going back to School,  Special Olympics, school plays, oldest daughter graduating from nursing school, hurt dog, old dog, sick kid at Home, surprise birthday party for a friend, walks in the field, spring flowers starting to bloom, rain, snow, wind, sun, snow, my  own work obligations.   ..... The  month May has been busy and it is only the 6th....take a breath, take a walk, find a puddle to put a boat on, breath.

I changed the name of this blog to" Current in the Chaos" because I think it describes my life so well.  Every morning I wake up with what I think is the plan for the day.  (The Current gong from point A to point B)  Wake up, feed dogs, get grumpy cub Yeti out of bed and ready for the school bus, A pot of tea and the bible, work, then rotate to other work, home to walk dogs, get Cub Yeti off the bus after school, easy afternoon in the backyard or sewing, make dinner, chill with Netflix, go to bed... It sounds great, well laid out, reasonable....This current is strong ever flowing pointing to a destination. There is always an unexpected bump or two, a reroute, a kid throwing up in the back seat of the car.

My life is so much like the river.  I get into the current, sucked into a big rapid,
the concentration is for that moment, to paddle or row through that business to stay upright and survive. I see only that moment in time, my focus us what is right in front of me. It is only looking back on that season of life and understanding that the individual events make up the length of the current. The river is not one rapid but the combination of so many.

 Ski season is a huge canyon of class 4 rapids.  I put my head down take each day each bubble as it's own, getting through  to set up for the next. Eyes front, trying to stay straight, working hard through each event resting when I can.  Focus is on that day's practice, build confidence to race, races build to compete in championships. It is only looking back on the season with my 20/ 20 hindsight that I can see what was truly accomplished.  So many eddies, snags, rapids the current kept us pointed in the right direction.

 I had the privilege of helping with the High School State Meet this year.  The skiers that I coached for their Middle School years are now in High School.  They have grown into fine young adults. Tall with muscles, skiing fast. The boys won their first State Title ever!  My babies have grown up. The thank you for pushing her to ski, from one of the gals, made me want to coach again next year.

I thought the next bend in the current would mean slower water for a bit.  Now it is school plays, Special Olympics, dentist, orthodontist, hurt dogs, sick cub, husband planning real river trips that I cannot find the time to join him on, celebrating oldest cubs's nursing degree, choir concerts, yard work,  rain, snow and wind, moments of sun.  It is a boulder field in the current, every minute different.  Exciting as it seems, it is energy consuming.

Stop and smell the flowers!

How do I find the current in my life?  Every day I pray to God to guide me. Show me the best route.  Some days I have to push through obstacles some days it is easy floating.  Always pointed down stream. Maybe I will get a walk  looking for signs of Spring today.  Sort of like hanging out on a sandy beach resting for a bit.


"You can never step in the same river twice for the waters are constantly flowing."  Heraclitus